Mama I've become a disappointment
I made a girl pregnant
I told her to terminate but she said she can't
I thought she was just like the rest
Who aborted after I gave them the meds
But as for her,she said she'll cope with it
What do I do mama?
I see her daily
She's a girl next door
Worst of all
We reside in the same floor
So you get it,we are in the same plot

She still has the same smile on her face
She lives as if nothing happened
She as usual does her daily routines
But on the other side,
I am still guilty of my acts
I even tried taking my life
But unfortunately she came to my rescue
Could she be the one mama?
Show me a sign before it's too late
I might live with regrets
If I don't collect the broken pieces
Or Should I move to a far away place?
Where I will not be seeing her attending her clinics?
Where I will not know how she is progressing?
Where I will not have to meet her on my way out?
I will no longer see her tummy protruding
I will no longer see my kid grow inside her tummy
And so I guess I will live happily
I can never face her directly

What did I do?
Why did I do this?
She treated me like her very own
She took care of me like her first born
But my foolish self let all that go
She's so different mama
I know someday I will have to deal with karma
I will move to a far away place
Because I can no longer stand her
Seeing her all the time makes me remember
How I couldn't be a good lover
But I instead messed her
I literally broke her
I repeatedly used her
she thought our love was magical
But I knew we couldn't last long
Because my motive was different
Please mama,forgive me
I am already a mess
I already regret
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   I THOUGHT WRONG!!

Girl you pressed me like a big button
I dropped from top to bottom
My wallet is all you focused on
I didn't know that my heart you took like a toy
All the while you treated me like a boy
You tossed my feelings like a ball in the air
Excuses were all you gave when I wanted to see you
But you always hit me up when your bills were due
If I may ask,was I that helpful?
Because I always came through
When you most needed me
I foolishly fell for your traps
I merrily offered myself
To you I was an open book
Little did I know I was dealing with a crook
Within no time I would be meaningless to you
And true to you I became useless
When I ran broke
You flipped me like a coin
I started seeing you with John
You started ignoring my calls
My messages you didn't respond
Visiting your house,ooops!you already changed your locks
It now dawned on me that I was truly dumped
Just like a used and useless can
In your life I became banned
You were nowhere to be traced
My hurt heart is now in pieces
I am still nursing my unseen bruises
My mind is always racing and fathoming why and how you did this
Did I really deserve it?
What did I do wrong?
Or didn't I love you like you deserved?
Didn't I take good care of you like you always wished?
I thought being with you would make my dreams true
The Ups and downs of life,would be easy with you
All along I was wrong thinking of me being with you
Now I see you living happily with John
I don't know whether he is the next john
Or your love to him is genuine
Did you use me as a brigde to get to him?
Because you knew him through me
And all along he called you shem
who played who?
Did he betray me or did you?
I am lamenting over spilt milk which I don't think is worth tearing for
But my life is slowly falling apart
I think am slowly drifting into depression because of my thoughts for you
Somebody tell me this ain't true
That I was dumped for a friend so close
That I was left because my bank account ran blank
All I see now is total darkness
In my life you brought brightness
Or so I thought
All you wished for
I willingly bought and brought to you as surprises
And now that my pockets are less productive
You choose John as your partner
I promise not to tamper
I see how well he pampers you
I will let you go
Because thoughts of you might make my mind blow
I still wanna live and see you glow
And maybe to a wife material you'll grow
All the best to my friend John

©CrucialArts✍🏽

             CENSUS

Ahem!! (Clears throat)

Your schedule we interrupt,
We have something abrupt,
A meeting,welcome, 
Join us in this meeting,
That will nurture our future, A meeting for all the genders, 
Census is the agenda,
The urgent agenda 

The government want to know where you live
Who you live with
How you make ends meet
And whether you gat kids

Wait,what's your tribe?
Where were you born?
With the people around,how do you bond?
Are you employed or you just loiter around?

Uhm,how is the government leading you?
The promises they made to you
Are they true?
Are they due?
Ama zilishazikwa kwenye kaburi la sahau?

Don't fear 
Speak up
Say it
As long as it's the truth
Don't sugarcoat
Let's walk together in this

How is the economy
Has it risen or it's favouring?
How are your children's classes?
Are they well built or the kids are shivering?
How are the sewers?
Are they well managed?

Anyway,
accidents happen daily on the highways
Reckless driving and rules breaking
Some said words flow with the wind
They are never followed

Hey,
It's census season
Let's wake up and reason
Together, this information we gather


✌🏽peace

            HE TOOK MY PURITY

My eyes were right
They were wide open when I sighted you

My hair was right
It stood still and straight when I was approached by you

My heart was right,
It pumped hard and two times faster than normal when u couldn't stop staring at me.

My entire body was right
It was shaken like I was in the cold while it was sunny out there.

My tongue and lips wronged me,
They couldn't allow me to scream for help though I guess it was because of the pen knife you pointed at me.
Your threats scared me.

My legs wronged me,
They couldnt help me run away from you

But was it because of how I walked past you?
Was it becoz of my beauty?
Was it becoz of my dress?
The dress which betrayed me and fell off just the moment I needed it most?
Just as you wanted?

Who should I blame?

The darkness?
It betrayed me
It couldn't let the war angels see the demon doing evil.

The bushes?
They saw it but couldnt help me when you forced yourself into me.

The birds?
They saw it but they neither couldn't give me a hand.

And after you were done,
You walked away with my purity.!
So how am I going to explain this?
How do I even start?
My body is weak,
you made me ill.
I dont wanna live another week,
Or should I just embrace the pills?

Aw its nothing!
What am thinking of right now is how this rope worked in the necks of those in the stories.

©CrucialArts

       I AM SORRY

I'm sorry 
I loved you so much
But I think I wasn't your perfect match
Maybe I was just a patch
Though I can't deny,I enjoyed every touch

I'm sorry,but if I may ask
Is that what they call short and sweet?
Though out to your friends my name you tainted
I can't regret
Yours I beautifully painted
It doesn't matter whether I even sugarcoated
But at least I can say I positively impacted 

I might not check on you on a daily
But do you know why?
Because I don't wanna fall for you again
I try as much to get you out of my mind
Because you're one of a kind

I'm sorry I failed to fulfill some promises
But time would tell whether am a good promise keeper
Of course I know I am even though it takes time to deliver

I'm sorry
I might be saying this when it's too late
But I always thought you would forever be my mate
Maybe at some point I was timid
But trust me my mind wasn't that rigid

And Finally
I am sorry I was unable to love you to your standard
You always termed me as difficult
Moreso difficult to understand
And yeah,that I will always concur

Am never good at lullabies
Neither am I good at good-byes
But I guess am good at by the ways
Even on the high ways

Written with love

©CrucialArts