Tuesday, October 15, 2019


Mama I've become a disappointment
I made a girl pregnant
I told her to terminate but she said she can't
I thought she was just like the rest
Who aborted after I gave them the meds
But as for her,she said she'll cope with it
What do I do mama?
I see her daily
She's a girl next door
Worst of all
We reside in the same floor
So you get it,we are in the same plot

She still has the same smile on her face
She lives as if nothing happened
She as usual does her daily routines
But on the other side,
I am still guilty of my acts
I even tried taking my life
But unfortunately she came to my rescue
Could she be the one mama?
Show me a sign before it's too late
I might live with regrets
If I don't collect the broken pieces
Or Should I move to a far away place?
Where I will not be seeing her attending her clinics?
Where I will not know how she is progressing?
Where I will not have to meet her on my way out?
I will no longer see her tummy protruding
I will no longer see my kid grow inside her tummy
And so I guess I will live happily
I can never face her directly

What did I do?
Why did I do this?
She treated me like her very own
She took care of me like her first born
But my foolish self let all that go
She's so different mama
I know someday I will have to deal with karma
I will move to a far away place
Because I can no longer stand her
Seeing her all the time makes me remember
How I couldn't be a good lover
But I instead messed her
I literally broke her
I repeatedly used her
she thought our love was magical
But I knew we couldn't last long
Because my motive was different
Please mama,forgive me
I am already a mess
I already regret
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