FEELS!!

Yesternight I lay my head on that pillow

for the first time it felt like it's made of willows

staring at the ceiling smoking the last blunt I had

how I wish that your feelings for me were equal

I admit I have your feelings

But yours is more of an obsession

You're so much insecure

That alone makes me scared

Because I don't know what your next action will be

When you spot me by the roadside 

With the same friends you don't wanna see

I mean breath, 

let it ease a little,

i'm not pleased,

our love is kinda fizzling out,

you don't take it easy on me,

you won't take it easy with me,

you cut me open don't leave me bleeding.

Am sorry if that's what you feel

But consider me too

Stop scaring my feelings

Don't want to loose my friends

Stop being so jealous

I promised to love only you

But you're making it hard for me to

Because I'm scared of you

let me in 

you gotta let me in

open up to me more than you did to your exes,

you can count on me,

only if you stop doubting me,

may be then I'll stop feeling like it's an illusion..

It'll take time to heal

From all the emotional bruises you caused

I always thought you care

But all you did was scare

Why don't you trust me for once?

Why do you always think am a cheat?

You say that I belong to the streets

Just because am friendly to every Harry,Tom and Dick

But just know that's my personality

Treating every person equally

I don't want no drama,

not from you my friends or my mama,

I'm so used to karma,

every action I take I'm expecting another,

so watch how you treat me love,

i might be the best guy you'll ever have,

last heart you'll ever touch,

since I'm the only one who understands your heart.

Haha,sorry to burst your bubbles

but don't blow your own trumpet

There are others out there who are more perfect

Only that you're my heart's choice and not them

So play your cards well and don't make me regret

When I decide to give us a second chance 

Cease juggling with my feelings

cease tampering with it,

cease tampering with the process,

don't be a hater of progress,

me and you can make it happen,

we could stay in love and travel the world,

tell me love wouldn't you love that.

I'd definitely love that

But my happiness comes first

All you do is make me sad

You know I've worked hard on us

To make us last

But my dreams you always cut

You always drag us back

And we start all over again at square one

Will we live like that??

You're always failing your promise to change

The blame is on me,

has always been me,

and I take it gladly since I want to make something off of it this time,

this time I want a happy ending,

this time i want to keep your loving,

this time I'll sacrifice lots of things,

this time I'll change for reals,

for you and for me,

you deserve better it's true,

and I haven't been anything else than a fool,

i starve your mind from the peace that you need,

I stay locked far away when you need me,

and that type of shit is killing us,

I swear I don't want that for us.

Then let this be the final time we reunite

Let this be the last chance you break your promise

I always want the best of best for us

Because you're always my heart's choice

However hard I try to deviate

It seems you're my fate

That's a reality I can't seem to change

You're the last person that I wanna hate

So please don't push it

Let's live in unity

I don't give you anything you want,

I might not get that "everything" you want,

I won't promise you tomorrow,

this whole thing could get blown by the wind any minute,

but right now all I know is you,

all I want is you,

my heart belongs to you,

you are the only one I want to do,

when the fear of the unknown  comes through it reminds me of you,

I let it slide as soon as it kicks in,

can't feed my soul with thoughts of me on my own without you,

sucks like a flu.

Okey babe I've heard you

Let's forget the past and start a new 

Because I can't imagine me without you

I don't want to be a victim of I wish I knew

Because you're the only one that my heart beats for

I love you to an extreme it actually hurts

But if am the one you wanna do life with

Let's give it a final shot I hope it'll work

I pray it works out,

I want it to work out,

I'll be wild and out about it if that is what it's going to take to work it out,

so much shit to think about,

all this life crap got me stressed out,

but I won't fight you no more my stress reliever,

I won't act like you are the reason for my soul seizure

you are my angel and I wouldn't trade you for no one.

  ©EmKay and CrucialArts